If you've not yet voted, there's still time. Going to be an interesting night watching results. To quote Josh on
The West Wing, "we're going to be up all night with these. It's going to be fun."
My dad and I talked a lot about the election when the campaigns got going in early 2007, and lately I've been a little overcome with the thought that I really wish my dad were here right now. He was so fascinated by what might happen. There are no words to convey how much I miss his presence.
Right now Sundays are my "back to reality" days after having a great weekend. Every Sunday I go to my dad's house (which has now been on the market for 14 months) and I check on the pool. The water level is usually low, so we have to keep refilling it. I've started using that time to also go for a walk around my dad's neighborhood. When I was there this Sunday, I was thinking about how we really need for the house to sell, and how maybe enough time has passed that it won't be as hard to say goodbye to that part of his life. I was thinking this while walking back from the park. As I got closer to my dad's house, I noticed that a car was out front, looking at my dad's house and picking up one of the fliers from the realtor. It suddenly hit me, maybe for the first time, that soon someone else will be living in my dad's house. And we'll no longer have that tangible place to go that makes us feel close to him. As I walked back to his home I started to cry.
I don't know why these thoughts are so prevalent right now, but they are. I suspect some of it is due to the start of November and knowing that in a few weeks we'll experience our second Thanksgiving without my dad. I think the holidays this year might be more difficult than I've been anticipating.
So I don't really know what to do about that anticipatory stress, other than just find ways to relax and keep from getting too worked up. Which is why I'm off to yoga (tonight). And Tampa (next week). And Vegas (in December).